LIJUN

2012-02-09T16:20:00.002+08:00

I gave up trying cause you guys have turned me into another person already.

I've hurt enough.

I don't want to cry everyday, and worry everyday.

Motives that I have when I talk to you?

I CAN TELL YOU I HAVE NONE.

I'm just trying to talk to you.

But none of you seems to care.

I'm tired of hurting, crying.

Lose 3 close friends at once.

Yeah, maybe it's just me.

But put yourself into my shoes too.

Know what I'm feeling now?

How painful is it?

You wouldn't understand.

I'm sorry I'm not like you.

I'm sorry I can never change to be as perfect as you guys want me to be.

This is just me.

I tried changing, tried not to like him.

I almost did it, but all of you left.

None of you talk to me now.

Total strangers.

Sometimes I wonder, do you guys even care?

Even if I'm gone, does it matter?

Most probably the answer is no.

I really give up already.

Thanks for trying to change me.

You've changed me, but it's not all what you guys wanted.

Maybe it's for the good.

I don't know.

Goodbye friends.

2011-10-14T20:30:00.001+08:00

I guess this is the end of everything.

I unfriend and unfollow both of you.

Wish both of you happiness.

Hope I can be strong.

And I will act like I'm fine.

So that you will be fine.

Goodbye.

2011-09-12T20:17:00.004+08:00

I think I can control myself already.

It's the first day that I tried keeping my jealousy under control :D

And it sort of works. I think.

HAHA.

Friends will be better I guess.

Better than me liking you.

Hehe.

Although I like you.

But it doesn't matter, I can ignore the feelings.

Or train to ignore :D

MOVING ON~

20 more days to promos. DIE LO!

2011-09-09T00:26:00.003+08:00

Yeah, this sucks. Again.

I thought you forgotten when you said you're gonna study and do work whole day.

But in fact, you remembered, and it sounds like you don't wanna go anymore.

So be it.

Whatever you want.
Since it don't matter to you, why should it bother me.

Yes it did bothered me, but who cares.

Seriously, you said it was a bad day for me.

Bad day doesn't come on it's own.

There's reasons to it.

And it's not a bad day if you didn't end it like this.

No it's not your fault.

In fact it's mine, for placing too high hopes.

~~MOVIE :D~~

2011-09-06T10:18:00.005+08:00

Why am I even crying when I chose to read it again?

Dumb.

Stupid.

Retard.

Fool.

Can I stop crying over guys?

2011-09-06T10:18:00.003+08:00

Seems like its all fated isn't it?

It's fated that I can't see you earlier, can't see you later either.

I shouldn't care about this.
Why am I even thinking about what you wanted to text her but sent to the wrong chat instead?

Can my heart and mind stop torturing me?

I don't want to think.

I want to take it as if nothing happen.
I want to be indifferent about it.

I must learn to ignore my feelings.

Halfway there, but it's never enough.

I CAN DO IT. I MUST DO IT. I SHOULD DO IT.

~~I love you~~

No, I can't love you.

2011-09-05T21:17:00.005+08:00

I have no rights.

Why is all the things bothering me!

I shouldn't care at all.

It shouldn't affect me!

DAMN.

I don't want to feel hurt anymore.

I don't want that weird feeling.

I don't want, I really don't.

2011-09-05T20:24:00.005+08:00

This is the start of something new :D

A new beginning to everything~

I should really start studying soon!

You're officially out of my life.
You don't even want to be friends.

Why am I still trying then?
I should just get on with my life right?
You don't even care.
Happy flirting.

Moved on, and fell into another pit.
Who can save me this time round?

I doubt anyone can.

Why am I so dumb?

Why can't I control myself?

Damn!

All this shit is driving me crazy.

It's the same old feeling.